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today started quite happy.
but turned sour for a while.
i woke up late,oh ofcourse deliberately.
dragging myself off the bed to iron my unifrm.
joked with mummy,blablabla.
so i boarded the bus.
tapped.
when i was about to alight,
tap,tap.
nothing.
tap.
nothing.
alighted anyway.
and realised i dropped my card somewhere.
urgh.
smsed mum.
she called immediately..
to scold.
i tried to be positive.
cause we're gonna get our new ezlinks sooner.
but then,she scolded me for using so much of her money.
and hatiku remuk.
tried to stir my mind off it.
but then,
its too overwhelming.
and i succumbed.
i cried.
i know my mom didnt really meant it.
she's been spending alot nowadays.
and i guess its getting on her nerve.
mummy,
i never meant to be such an expensive child to be looked after.
its silly.
the whole time,
i kept on thinking of doing silly things.
its really amazing,and somehow scary how the mind works.
shudder,shudder.
well.
i realised.
i owed alot to my parents,esp her.
i should really start treating her properly.
oh mummy,
i love you.
and im sorry,
for every single mistakes.