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"Youth, even in its sorrows, has a brilliance of its own." -Victor Hugo

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seeking uniqueness,rather than unity.
a sanguine,albeit having a likeness of solitude.
a true blooded aljuniedian,reaching her final year.
just trying her best to be who she is,really.

[ 23:51 ]

heartbreaks.

tough,isnt it.

well,came across some girls currently having it.

devastating.

altho i dont even know them,

randomly browsing thru.

i feel them.

i guess every girls do.

well,

i hope theyll survive.

cause its not the end.

its the beginning.

embrace the beginning of a new phase of life.

im actually debating with myself to whether go to sleep or wait papasita finish work.

gosh,this heart is missing papasita.

2more hours to go.

hmm.

[ 23:30 ]

missing papasita.

[ 23:21 ]

guys.

seems that some still dont give a damn about their face.

i mean,

guys should wear products too!

unless ur blessed with babybum's smooth n soft,white skin.

one fine example:Papasita.

you know i like to see clogged pores.

i wanna unclog it,badly.

and he's my first victim.

i know i shudnt be.

n i only do it when they really look like they want me to.

anyway,

abt men and their skincare..

he says his skin is okay(wth) with occasional pimples..

and occasional burst of acne.

well hunny,

its not ok.

he should be thankful his skin is not yet bopeng.

and now,

since after so long persisting.

hes allowing me to help him.

well,

i have almost the same skin condition as his.

we're both oily.

and my skin used to be prone to pimples.

but since i used bedak sejuk with kunyit..

ta da.

it did paid.

so ive just prepared the so called mask mix for him.

n ill give him when we meet next time.

yay.

hope itll improve his skin condition.

[ 23:02 ]

hehe.

finally...

PAUL SMITH ROSE!!!

ecstatic.

euphoric.

thanks mum.

syg u.

[ 12:13 ]

only time will tell.

well.

sometimes we get mad,all hyped up with someone.

and didnt even care to think that...

we're doing exactly the same thing to him/her.

well.

human nature.

a week left.

OH MY GOD.

[ 12:04 ]

so,this happened.

i asked my dad jokingly,could i not finish school..

he was drinking his coffee,and said with a straight face,"no.kan sayang..".

well,there's it.

i cant.

well.

recently ive been thinking twice.

im just not confident abt next yr.

cause,hello.

no more academics.

just plain ukhrawi.

well,im ok with it.

i mean,ukhrawi subjects arent that hard if we pay attention and understand.

but i just dread the language.

insya and balaghah/adab.

i just dont get them.

i like nahu thou.

well,anyway.

its all about passion.

passion to learn ukhrawi.

and sadly,

i have less than 50% for it.

so im just worried.

im worried i cant make it.

but then..

ive been doing good.

is my mind just playing games with me?

well.

on the other hand..

i wanna graduate with them.

12years together.

and next year's gonna be the last year to taste uniform school.

to enjoy each other's company..

as students in uniform.

well.

i guess im just gonna put up with one more year.

aswhat he added,"1 year's really short.i dont want you to drop out."

well poppa.

i wont ok.

expected. [ 01:08 ]

oh,merry christmas.

i had a malay christmas.

what a day.

firstly,

he was late,then i was late..

so he alighted to wait for me,

and we bickered.

its hard if both is degil.

heh.

so,he said"taman warisan".

we got there around 10.30am,and damn hot.

the place was deserted.

totally.

so we called khalis,

whom irritates papasita the most n usually will end up swearing at him on phone..

"ktrg kat mejid sultan chiteeet!"

"ah?mejid sultan?de kat geylang lah."

he looked at me,i looked at him.

"ok,lets go before we get pissed off"..wetold ourselves.

and so..

in the bus to geylang...

i looked at him,

n with a big grin,

i said,"TAMAN WARISAN..AAH."

and we burst out laughing,

furthermore with the bus almost empty..

to not get embarrassed,

we talked about upcoming movies..

and he kept on making this stupid voice saying,"I AM IRONMAN!" followed by air electric guitar-ing.

seriously,funny and irritating.

pecah perot gue.

then we arrived,finally.

and yes,aku semangat.

got a crash course on kompang 101.

and damn,putra is one BIG organisation.

no wonder they almost bolot all eh.

hehe.

putra sakti gerek uh.

oh,

papasita's allhyped up for the upcoming one.

hes gonna take part,after a long break.

semangat sey,ngn hanis n fad.

so cute.

well.

afterwards.

balek hougang,makan chikkin chop yg tersedap di hg..

and lepak kat bigsteps.

talked,talked,talked.

turned out.

i really do complain alot.

and he really doesnt like to lose.

hyak dish.

went home..

and poppa n momma cannot tdo.

so we headed to t3 and had some ya kun time.

talked,talked,talked.

and listened to MJ12 together.

hehe.

[ 00:34 ]

as we were lying down side by side at the big steps..

i saw the cloud covering the crescent moon..

"AAAHHH!!DA TAKDE BULAN!!"

and pretended to die.

he laughed,and layankan..

"ok mati...da mati?dah eh..mati.."

a few seconds later..

"kejap nye busok..baru mati."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

KURANG AJAR NYE MAYAT.

we played air pasang pagi..

and when its the last part..

"siape goyang kene geletek."

.....

im a sucka for this.

andsuddenly,without him triggering it..

i burst out laughing.

hehe.

"GILER LAH LINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

what a vainpot. [ 23:40 ]

well..

met up with him.

recently,

its been all spanish with him.

im mamasita,

hes papasita.

theres once he blurted random spanish,over n over.

and made his own translation..

when the words are the same.

so,

papasita is now a vainpot.

he likes his pictures so much..

he actually asked me to upload it here.

and label it "my handsome boy".

muntah.muntah.muntah.

"oh,ana ajmal..."-nancy ajram.

[ 23:15 ]

funsome prevails.

oh,what a day.

im tired.

but somehow i dont wanna go to sleep yet.

met nash.

wanted deeyah to come,

but shes working.

went Vivocity.

and window shopped+lepak2.

we went shop by shop,ogling and ogling..

waiting for sales..

no,waiting to earn own money and spend it like water!!

thatll be in years to come.

so,for now we just mentally cancel the last digit to each price tags.

hehe.

but i want that peacock shirt!

we can share,nash!

hehe,

and sequins!

ooohhh.

shoes,bags,dresses..

and daiso!

oi,lame tak gi.

each bought caramel corns,nash's was honey flavoured.

she bought an animal printed cekak,

and i bought a choker for pupu!

there's even a bell!

hehe..

and we tapau-ed burger king,

and lepak at the rooftop.

talked,ate,talked,took pictures,talked,laughed,laughed,laughed.

da penat,and semakin flooding rooftop tu ngn org yg tkde kerje..

we went home.

but we went to the NATGEO shop beforehand.

hehe,i like,i like.

amek2 silly pictures.

da cukop mau,kite klua and balik rumah.

hehe.

and i proceed on to meet papasita.

...

happy 17th! [ 10:20 ]

oh yes.

happy belated 17th birthday to Kyria!!

im gonna get you something dear.

ingt tk,

tyme olevel dulu,

we kept on commenting on why you were always wearing ur mum's clothes..

and well.

i think im gonna get you one baju.

lame tk nmpk kau yaya.

miss you=]

and miss everyone else too.

gosh,less than 2weeks.

[ 10:13 ]

brr.

morning rain never fails to make us sleepy.

well.

im going out today with nash!

oh,dah lame u....

heading to vivo soon.

ages since we've been there.

well,

happy advance christmas,y'all.

[ 22:56 ]

no one can beat amr diab.

no arab artistes that is.

that is why after 20damn years..

he still rules.

poppa of arab music.

[ 22:52 ]

no wonder its manmade,and not allah's creation.

one fine example:Nancy Ajram.

the pop scarlet of arab music.

shes pretty,really she is.

looks abit fake(well,plastic).

but it enhanced her beauty.

only..

it enhances her beauty when she smiles..

and well,she did manage to look natural.

but when shes expressionless..

her face is tad fake.

those cheeks,those lips.

no wonder its manmade.

no one,

no human creation could ever beat Allah.

that is why Allah is god,

and we're just his creations.

subhanallah.

[ 09:33 ]

ok.

so finally...

THE KILLERS is coming to singapore.

on the 24th jan 2010.

and..

i just got to know it,like yesterday.

all because..

i didnt watch mtv anymore.

and when i watched it again yesterday..

i saw the ad..

and literally..

i screamt.

and bummer.

standing pen dahbes.

and well,

tak cukup duit.

if only id known earlier.

i cudve save some money....

well,its no used to cry over spilled milk.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NAK TENGOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!111

[ 09:25 ]

i love amr diab's voice.

gosh,so mencairkan.

altho,his physical form..

well,i tak minat you.

and what cud make me more happier than knowng my uncle likes him too,

and the whole journey to and back from the kampung was filled with his songs in the car.

it really did killed the boredom.

cause only me,him and my nyai went.

oh,

isnt he just talented.

amr diab i mean.

my pakcik,i dont know.

haha.

well.

gudmorning.

[ 21:55 ]

ok,the previous post.

sorryk if its like too mushy.

haha.

well.

im having tummyache since coming back from kampung.

went to the docs.

and he said,it cud be the appendix.

cause it hurts at the bottom right.

but cause its not tat bad,i dont have to go to the hospital.

well,

i hope it wont be bad.

the pain's still here.

but its bearable now.

only somehow..

i felt that the medicines arent helping..

well.

i wanna be healthy

so i can go and watch the kompang competition.

leonaidus is so hyped up about it!

cheesyness,overflow. [ 21:44 ]

fights.

arguments.

bickerings.

well.

part of the the relationship parcel.

yesterday was the worst.

feelings hurt.

feelings misunderstood.

it was just bad.

but all ended well.

sometimes i hated him for being too egoistic.

i hated him for blaming it all on me.

but i have my faults too.

i kept irating him.

im too self centered.

but it all comes down to one thing;

love.

thus we became one again.

something sweet happned amidst him consoling.

i broke down like a broken dam.

and he constanly tried to console me.

when finally he did got me to stop crying..

with me at his chest..

he said,"wanna hear a story?"

and he told me a story..

about us.

and whilst telling me..

i heard,"iris" playing at the background.

serious!!!

i was like,eh??

mcm kat movie gitu..

ape lagi..

i burst out crying again!

hehe,well.

then when i ws tired..and normal again..

i asked him,"did u deliberately turn the song on?"

"no,its a message tone.funny kan..how suitable".

i love that moment.

love is a roller coaster ride.

the key is not to fear..

but embrace it.

the thrills.

the strange sweetness.

love.

is what we are.

[ 21:37 ]

to those who watched "The Hangover"..

well.

that night when the four of us went out ,

i realised how cute my dad is.

as cute as Alan.

theyre quite similar physically!

shor,stubby,and they both carry a man purse!

which they denied,saying its actually a satchel.

"even indiana jones have it.."-Alan.

how cute.

and that night,we watched Avatar together.

the movie was awesome!

superb effects.

really made us fooled.

its like wed stepped into another real planet.

and my mum actually praised Allah whilst watching the scenes..

hahaha!

and i said to her,"mak,ni manmade lah"

well,thank allah for giving us the technology eh.

we went home at 1.30am.

eyes red with tiresome.

but it was worth it.

rare family time.

with one absentee.

well,i hope he's doing well there.

[ 21:34 ]

dont you just hate it when your mum just got everything right?

well,its a bit annoying.

we had this short conversation in the car.

my dad was reminding her,his big boss is coming to town.

which she suddenly said to me,"ur not interested in learning japanese again eh?"

well,i said yes,cause im lazy..

but she rejected my reason,and said the real reason is..

"just admit it lah..ur mind is so occupied with your wan,you dont have any other time for anything else"..

how true can that be.

well.

i guess im one of those girls.

hello,again. [ 21:28 ]

more than a wek since ive updated.

reason:lazy.

well.

lots of stuff happened.

just gonna highlight some.

well,for starters.

leonaidus got a new phone.

me n him and his mum went to M1 together,

and i kinda psyched them into getting a new line for him.

heh,well it doesnt cost much.

and,finally,unlimitd smses and free incoming for him!

im just tryin to make his life simpler.

and he bought me a wallet!

well,both of us wanted new wallets,

i bought his at Kl,and he liked it!

and well,he bought me one in return!

and the best thing is...I GOT TO CHOOSE!

oh..

and he's quit his work at coffee bean.

gosh,the pay was so disappointing!

for some "chic" cafe..they could only offer so much!

urh.

so he got pissed and yes, disappointed.

and decided to change work.

and this sat,he'll start work again.

this time at Shangri La Hotel.

well,im happy for him.

[ 22:24 ]

pupu's sick.

i knew he wasnt ok when i came back from kl.
he was so silent.

and found out he was limping.
well.
kesiannyte die.
mcm nak nangis sey.

but being animals.
they heal themselves.

im waiting for him to b ok.

allah,
please speed up his healing.

kesian die.
=(

[ 22:15 ]

so today he's overtiming.
waiting for him to finish work.
around 1am.

i pity him so much.
but he says its okay.
but i know somehow hes lying.
well.
he said its for the both of us.

so today.
i went to eul's.
did osme project of ours.
and found out mny friends are going to see new moon.
so mengecek lah.
hehe.
thank you jaja=]=]=]
sayang kau.

and saw fae!!!
u just dont know how much we misssed you hunny.
im happy to see you again=]

well about the movie.
its well..
very romantic.
but somehow i felt so geli.
its so cheesy lah.

maybe cause its not my type of romantic flicks.
well.
i wouldnt recommend it for non-twilight fans.
and one thing...
the ending SUCKS.
"maryy me.."
?!?!?!?!?

well.
i dont like jacob lah.
yeah.his bod is one hot rocking body for a 17yr old.
but...tak minat the face lah...
and edward...
what the heck sia?!
he's not even close to hot.

well.
as what eul said..
different ppl..
different opinions.

i cant wait to hear from him.
kerinduan.

[ 22:00 ]

on the 8th.
we had a bbq.

well.
30bucks burned.
i dont know where it went.
but i am not satisfied ppl.

well,
apart from that shit.
it was one heck of a funtime.

most came.
and boy i missed them alot.

and yes.
i fell from the bike again.
and tore my jeans again.
lesson learnt:dont ride with amateurs.

and yes,
i know its not ur fault wan..
but actually its partly urs.
well,i cant blame you lah..
lu budak baru bro.
takpelah.
sluar aku da pon jahit,(rock bro koyak2..hehe grunge ke pe.)
and my bruises are healing.
but seriously the next day i woke up with aches and bruises all over my body.
leonaidus applied dettol on them for me..
and kaninachibai saketgilebabi.
literally,it was burning.

well.
we tonned the nite.
and they taught me to play the cards..
but when laonaidus came and taught them the more intermediate level..
aku da pening..
and i gave up.
urgh.
spoiler eh.

well.
now i do believe so..
BOYS WILL BE BOYS.
seriously,u guys are.
u guys should be thankful i was the only girl there ith you.
and i cleaned the whole place up.
ade ke kate,ade bangla pe.
tsk3.
girls,only u understand me kan.
and papa.

so..
they all chowchinchow around 5+am.
and left me and leonaidus.
we continued sleeping till around 9+.
then decided to hang around MCD.
he was craving for big mac since the night before.
was soo tired sia.

so we reached home around 1pm.
both verymuch grumpy from the noon heat,and sticky takmandi nye badan.
and slept for 5hours straight.

woke up.
and decided to meet him again.
hehehehehe.
bought something hottt(animal instinct boys,meow.)
and topped up my card.
ate dinner together,tapaued food from home.
and lepak2 tiull 10+.
but we didnt feel it was latenight already..
what a bummer.

well.
it was fun.
wanna do more!

and
I WANT MY MONNNEEEY BACK!
BAYAR KORANG YG BLOM BAYAR!!!
grrrrr.

[ 19:33 ]

guys!!

da lame tak update.

well.
on the 3rd..
went to picnic with kyria,byda,wani,acap,syark and my leonaidus at PPP.
altho not many turon,.we had the best of fun time together.
with wani's keletah..
haha.

rode the bike with leonaidus around the park..
hehe.
it was fun.

then we bought that thing we have been eying on.
thanks,hunny.
i like it very much.
heheheh.

then dissapeared to Kl with my paklong n maklong.
visited relatives there.
gosh,it was so much fun that i thought.
fun experience.
hope to see them again.=]=]=]

and bought stuff for him n me.
and boy he did love them.
hehe.

[ 13:13 ]

last night was...a guess abit fucked up.

ever felt so down and low,

like you just wanna cry endlessly..

and when you stop and think about why ur in this state..

nothing came inside your fucked up mind?

YOU JUST DONT KNOW WHY YOU'RE SAD?

well,exactly,that happened to me.

i just dont know why.

gosh,gile eh.

well,im ok now.

and btw,

my laptop da rosak gaknye.

it just cant connect to the internet.

shiit.

well,

back to using the berabok computer kat balcony tuuu.

[ 12:55 ]

yesterday's swimming was great.

gosh,the last time i went for a swim was last june,during a chalet.

and surprisingly,i can swim!!

guess the lessons i took during p4 paid off eh.

and i can still wear the swimming costume from p4!

haha.

maybe i wanna go swimming again.

and its only 80cents.

[ 02:14 ]

furry guinea pigs and cats.

i realised,not many guys have blogs.
are they lazy..
or are we just so talkative?

haha.

gudnyte hunnies.

[ 01:48 ]

nak gi swimmming later on!

with zephyrians and mira,maya and my dearies.

excited!

rindu drg.

oh,wan will be back at work.
will meet him later on lah.

[ 01:35 ]

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

gosh i shud be sleeeping.

smalam gerek.
lepak kat rumah wan,jamming guitar.
unfortunately,as his mom's going to work,
we went out around 3.

walked to hougang point,
to pay the bbq pit.
ate sundae,surprisngly my strawberry was much yummier than his hot fudge.
wanted to buy a party mask,which he criticised me.
kurang ajar!
took the bus to tampines..and got pening so we slept.
ate at popeyes,which i dont really favour that much.
but cause he wanted so much to try it,we ate there.
maha setakat.
but surprisingly,we were full.
well,we werent hungry actually.

walked to the lib,
returned books and browsed magazines.
then went to Warda's to return her SD card.

walked to mr teh tariks.
and chill ngn teh tariks and goreng pisangs.
and i got to try prata paper!!!!!
haha,finally,after much persuasion.
walked around the area,
went to the pet shop.
and laughed at the animals' antics.

guinea pigs are cute.
we saw one which was soooo black.
and the fur's solong and silky.
it looked like a bundle of hair.
rambut palsu!
hahahaha,so cute.
muke bodoh plak tu.

then tungu 59 for almost 1hr,
talked and talked.
laughed and laughed.
tull we arrived at my area.
sat around there to waste time together.

we talked alot today.
both nonsensical and normal conversations.

it was fun.

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