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"Youth, even in its sorrows, has a brilliance of its own." -Victor Hugo

Uploaded with ImageShack.us hyper,talkative,coquettish,lively individualist
seeking uniqueness,rather than unity.
a sanguine,albeit having a likeness of solitude.
a true blooded aljuniedian,reaching her final year.
just trying her best to be who she is,really.

a thing to ponder. [ 02:39 ]

from the choices of books i chose..

and the songs that usually get stucked in my mind..

and my preferred choice of movies..

i love history.

shoudve taken history last year.

id probably scored.

sometimes i do think of how was life then.

living in ancient times.

however only 2 things shudders me : CLEANLINESS n VIOLENCE.

just a random thought.

reader's disclaimer:its love. [ 02:14 ]

somedays,its getting hard.

yet,on some days..its so sweet-inducing..we could get diabetics.

how unpredictable.

what i know for certain,n i know you know it too.

the fights lever last..

and try it now..try in think of the past fights..and the reason it happened.

the mind clearly didnt store it for long.

dear you,

last night was just sweet.

after few days absence,the heart brightens when the eyes set their gaze on u across the road.

altho i started off with quite a temper,you still managed to bring me out of that n let the Lyna back into my body.

we laughed so hard,i reckoned the 13thstorey could hear us.

we talked,and laughed,and talked,and laughed again.

i felt bad abandoning the rest..but then i guess we do need some alone time together.

when the clock striked 10pm,its time to hop onto the bus n head home.

with a very heavy heart,we parted waving our goodbyes..eyes still in focus on each other.

then came the phone call,and it really summed up my day.

as you sleep,falling into deep slumber..here i am killometres away,feeling the ache in my heart which shouts "longing for you"..

gosh,i better stop.

its getting too mushy,like a romance novel.

heh.

n yes bro,

i love our rings.

they look so..us.

oh,4more days.

ERR,AM I STILL WELCOME HERE? [ 01:50 ]

gosh,hello again.

seems so long ago,ey.

well,been busy,obviously.

i know ive said this before,

but,pfft.

N THEY SAY ITS GONNA BE MORE CHILLS THIS YEAR!!!!

shudnt have believed in that.

false hope people!!!

just a brief summary about whats been happening:

A STUDENT.

CA's are ending soon.done with most,only left with insya,nahunbalaghah(2wk of march),also qawaid n tafsir(april).
starting to be interested in Qawaid,n finding the lectures quite easy=]
still in reluctance to embrace insya..err.
is focusing on tafsir again(somehow i could distracted ..)
also is focusing on usul fiqh since i got my book,like finally.

AN ALJUNIEDIAN.

where art thou,nash? shes disappeared,macam biscuit literally..GOSH I MISS YOU.
CONVOCATION '09. Now,after witnessing it..i am very determined to FINISH THIS!!cant wait for CONVO '10!!really reaally hope no one will be left behind.
ITMAJ!!! LOVING IT,thou the business of it is starting to embrace me..ive welcomed it with arms wide open~~~more projects on the way..n can i say im enjoying my moments with our fellow itmaj!hehe.
JAPAN VISIT '10. two days long..n helluva fun n awesome.
THE UKHWAH IS BETTER NOW,alhamdulillah. gosh,knowing this..convo will be a very teary event..

I AM LINA.

got back to being a nerd,with storybooks in hand,everytime.seems that ive reunited my love with words&imagination.
gained confidence that i am able,ABLE to graduate from Aljunied,after 12long years.
trying to accept me for who i am,physically n mentally. i am a curvy,feminine hyperhappy lady,with shining bright personality that could blind the eyes of those who set tehir gaze on me. hehe.
is now a tutor,revising maths n science with primary kids.
waiting for 7more years.

[ 22:37 ]

its nice to hear about ur life,fae.

since i dont go online on msn anymore.

oh,how much i miss you.

we seriously need to have an outing,hunny.

repentance [ 22:17 ]

today was fated.

it was written for us.

that we will be attending ESQ today.

ya Allah.

im so thankful,i feel so blessed for it.

cause today i realised.

how stupid,ignorant human i was.

ive sinned.

ignore the knowledge..

fed on my temptation.

forgot who i really was.

but despite all.

Allah ya Rahman,ya Rahim.

i realised how deep his love is to us.

the sinned humans.

and he had made this event part of our fate..

to show us the right path.

to stop us from straying even further.

we were chosen.

i wanna be a better muslim.

i will be.

i wanna love Allah more than anything else.

for he has an unconditional love for us.

despite all.

amin ya rabbal alamiin.

movies. [ 01:00 ]

oh..

then after that fana moment...

i saw a BIGGER display of ALICE IN WONDERLAND.

and again i shrieked.

JOHNNY DEPP.

OHMYGOD.

gonna watch in on 3d.

defffo.

oh.

wanna watch percy jackson the lightning thief.

hanis stole him while i was at school,

and went on a date with wan.

they watched it,and left me feeling like a cheated wife.

oh,and wolfman.

benecio del toro..

oh,clash of the titans too.

i remembered we watched the trailer online.

so gonna watch this epic movie.

oh,terlalu byk movies.

NODAME. [ 00:53 ]

COMING SOON.

IN MARCH.

GYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~

so we were going up the escalator to the cinema..

when i caught a very familiar sight.

and i shrieked,literally.

i went up to the life size display..

and hugged tamaki.

and when i turned around,

wan was halfway up.

de tnk layan aku!

grr.

well,i convinced him nodame was fuckin damn hilarious.

n so gonna make him watch it.

OH MY GOOOD.

GYABO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

tmrw! [ 00:25 ]

tomorrow's ESQ.

gosh cant wait.

u know i like these kinda things.

interaction.

character building.

bonding.

hehe.

bliss. [ 23:56 ]

unexpectedness.

the heart feels light.

the mind is at ease.

im in love.

tonight was..

the best.

it wasnt a valentines celebration.

we chose not to do that anymore.

rather,we felt so infatuated..out of love.

so no cliches here.

free tickets to the movie valentines day.

sweet sweet movie.

only one thing,FANS OF BRADLEY COOPER,

DONT WATCH.HES GAY HERE.

i literally shrieked in disgust.

cause he cant act gay.

he just cant,it looked awkward.

hehe.

bought a bouquet of magenta roses.

i chose them,and opted out red,cause they just so sexy.

and theyre for seksi time.

not infatuated time.

hehe.

yamazaki is our favourite bakery.

oh,caramel pudding..

mmmmm.

i love those moments.

seriously,if we were in a cartoon,

small heart shaped bubbles could be seen floating around us.

hehe.

infatuation all over again.

[ 22:21 ]

ohhh,zeksii.

sesi boy.

sesi girl.

smelly boy,fart here n there.

how dare he announced to them i yakkyakk.(FALSE!!!)

grrr.

n they broke into laughters.

korg takperna yak pe.

GRR,

[ 21:52 ]

tomorrow's dental.

hmm.

when can i take this off?!?!?!

one good thing thou.

ESCAPE INSYA!!!!!!!!!!

ala,

but ill miss GB.

gosh i LOVE GB.

ouch. [ 21:40 ]

its hard to please both parties.

when they are like polls apart.

vengeance.

is there still traces of it in here?

i realised how hard it is to be true to urself.

'i guess ive been avoiding it the whole time.

tears.

hurt crushed.

for something that was never meant to be.

never meant to.

never did.

but it did happened.

feelings hurt.

tears shed.

no use of anything else except acceptance.

a lesson learnt.

may the happiness stay.

dear.. [ 21:27 ]

Love.Hubb.Cinta.

sometimes i dont get you my friend.

i once asked,amidst the pain you caused,

"why does it have to hurt so much?"

but have we ever pondered afterwards,

the amount of pain..is it in par with the happiness ur feeling now?

no it doesnt.

cause happiness surpasses the pain.

i guess thats the beauty of you,my friend.

you too,are very unpredictable.

only just a day spent together..

we could bicker,cry and laugh.

u are very greedy,friend.

i wish you could tame that.

my friend,love.

despite everything that youve brought together with you..

ive embraced you.

and never did i regret doing so.

cause you never fail to make this heart flutters.

i hope you'd stay with me for a long time.

id appreciate if you do.

dear friend.

i love you.

[ 21:20 ]

wait.

"they dont love you like i love you.."

-maps by YeahyeahYeahs.

i like acoustic rhythms.

takes you beyond ur imagination.

body relaxes..

mind drifting..

i guess im starting to live up to my name.

Lina.

missing makes the heart grow fonder. [ 11:10 ]

i missing them.

mira,fae.

dee.

waly,naim,ilyas.

hilmi n his "hehehe"..

suddenly reminiscing the moments we shared.

the moments we laughed,joked,smiled,even cried together.

i miss laughing with you mira.

i miss ur presence,the way you are with waly in class..

i just miss you.

i miss fae too,

fae,mane jodha akbar aku?

i miss talking about jodha akbar with her(not that you were into it..u wer actually nice to layan me)

i miss watching her being silly out of the blue,

i miss watching u n wardi bicker..

i just miss ur presence so much.

n to deeyah.

congrats,congrats.

i miss you.

the moments we shared seemed so long ago..

i wish for it to be reawaken.

gosh,i miss watching ilyas and his eccentric ways of doing things.

i miss his cute chubby white face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gosh,

i sound like an old soul.

pills [ 11:06 ]

cramps.

was so worried about my cycle.

cause i was off the pill..

and alhamdulillah there was no spotting in betweens.

but it came a day late.

fuhh,

alhamdulillah it came.

only god knows the state of my mind then.

allah loves me,despite all.

oh yah,

im actually glad i was off the pills.

cause they made me put on weight!

i gained 5kg in 3months ok!

in my state,gosh i dont need the extra kgs.

u could give it to deeyah or syark or wani or rai or hoever who's skinnier than me.

i managed to lose a kilo or 2..

but grr.

n to those commenting on my weight gain,

well its not me,its the pills.

changes. [ 09:43 ]

are we the only ones left behind?

well,

u grew up with them,

spent most of ur hours with them,

even if wer not close,

everyone's presence made a difference in each n every one of us.

and this year marks their freedom.

their breakaway.

how i wish i was a part of them.

oh daddy,

why did u change ur mind n ask me to finish sch?

i dont know how to deal with this anymore.

the subjects are getting more intense..

and require a hell lot of concentration.

and my mind's just drifting away..

i hope i can go through this.

i cannot tahan with INSYA.

seriously.

oh allah.

smiles. [ 23:33 ]

27 more mins left.

455 days of us.

eventually.. [ 23:26 ]

i guess i cant stay mad or sad for long.

u guys are forgiven.

that shining star. [ 22:43 ]

i called him up.

and we met.

strawberry strudel.

pizza hut.

2 extra drumlets.

1 extra icecream.

blue coral ice blended.

shared laughter,and smiles.

he's still having his headaches.

althou it has receded..

its still there.

please go to ur family doc or the polyclinic k syg.

im worried.

n sadly,

after the interview..he didnt get the fitness course.

i guess its because he smokes.

well..the interviewer did emphasized on that..

hmm.

i hope hell get the tourism course.

its only a year.

maybe we could enter poly together next year.

hurt n smiles. [ 22:26 ]

they hurt me.

well,sometimes when ppl became selfish without even realising..

they do hurt others.

and the best thing is.

they didnt even realise it.

maybe im too emotional.

cause even this could made these eyes water.

even so,if i cried my heart out..

will they evn know?

sorry itmaj for not coming to the meeting.

my sould just wasnt with me.

and therell be no use of me attending without my soul.

thanks mushi.

and syu for caring.

esp syu..

i love you.

nanti aku bwk biskut ntuk kau k.

takmu cubit pantat i yg seksi ni lagi k.

hehe.

qiyam 10. [ 00:07 ]

was good.

there were some setbacks..n cock ups but all ended well.

i guess im an mc,not a facie.

n we do need to improve on some aspects.

but overall,we did well for our 1st qiyam.

fave moments of mine:

to see the participants having fun,laughing n interacting with their facies..

and the solat under the full moon.

the whole night we talked about our problems,

and how to deal with it.

and..

we have made some decisions.

gonna do it asap!

coz everyone is tired,

and we just wanna enjoy our last year to the fullest.

oh,

and can we request to organise qiyam throughout the year,and let the pre u 1 organise our last?

cause,

how can we prove our worth when we're only given one chance?

gonna bring this up on our next meeting with itmaj.

oh,

can i say that the sec 1s were so sweet?

cute n sweet,its ok girls.

if u are still enjoying ur post primary years.

its better that way than acting all grown up when ur really far from it.

i love the feedbacks!

alhamdulillah.

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