out of hibernation,yay.

im coughing.
and coughing.
didnt go to the doctor cause was too busy with muqoronah n mustolah.
well,i dont feel like visiting it either.
hmm.
but the cough r hurting my throat.

that day i realised my cough was getting bad,
i asked yaya,"ky,kalau batok byk2 the throat's wall nanti damage eh?"
"aah"she answered.
and i panicked.
hehe.

well.
i bought woods' cough syrup last night.
and after taking it,
i suddenly realised its for cough by cold.
i dont think mine is.

and btw,tak sedaap ok.
he laughed at my cringed face,saying its so budak2.
ape je,abeh tak sedap.
bluek.


"I am coming, I'm on my way to you,
I am coming with my heart in my hands,
Wipe away my tears, please.

I don't want to be tormented through the nights,
I don't want my eyes to stay up through the night,
I don't want the unlit lanterns of love,
I want to light them again.

With every touch I want to forget my hands in yours,
And be with you.

Cruel, your heart was cruel, it had not forgotten me,
But now with every passionate call, I sleep and awake to love."
jaayi.
i am coming,spartanbee.
please dont cry.




politics & spaghetti.

friday afternoon with akhawaats preu2.
tiong bahru plaza, lapanbelasTukangMasak.
perut buncit,hati senang,rasa gembira.


hahahhahaha.

ya allah,
please please take care of our school and its future.
please take care of our beloved ustazs and ustazahs.
please dont let the syaitan win this battle.
show them the right path,wake them up.

ya allah.
help them before its too late.
dont let them regret of their actions later.
dont let them follow thier nafsu and destroy everything.

ya allah.
we love our school.
we love our asatizahs.


the future scares me.

have you ever felt,
that when things are going ok..
you start to think"if im happy now,then time of sadness will come.."
and you started to panic,
thinking of all the worst scenarios for every single thing.
and your heart starts to ache.
your mind blank.
and you cry.

i am scared of the unexpectedness of life.

ya allah.




4months gone.

months to go till we part,and follow our own respective directions.
months to go left.

the exam fever is back again!
insya p1 n quran shafawii is done!
tafsir CA too.
left with m.hadith,muqoronah n balagha.
and after few more days,
the real exam will start.

gosh.
this is stressful,ok.
insyallah,we will go trough this.
ya allah,saa'idna.



gosh.
really,how can that happened?
must be because of Allah.
subhanallah,
ya allah.
alhamdulillah.

kemarahan itu syaitan.

ya allah,
mengalah itu suatu yg begitu sukar untuk dilakukan.
it is really THAT HARD.
to admit to something that you believe is not ur fault.

but,
tears n confrontation are good.
cause it will all seems to dissolves into the passing air.

and happiness is back again.


time flies by,
like a speeding subway.

leaving us,standing..
thoughts in a haze.

alwaqtu kassaif.

albeit knowing it,
we cant help but to procrastinate.

to know that uve been left out by time.
is truly,
painful.

for we cant cry over lost time.

sesungguhnya,aku percaya ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian.

truly,there is.

and somehow i can feel it.

alhamdulillah,

somehow some ways..

i am now interested,n very much interested in arabic language.

allah works in many wonders.

its true.

we plan,allah decides.

and now..

i just dont know where to go.

right now my mind n heart says "i wanna study academics in an arab environment".

ive found a place; The American University of Cairo"

with my o level cert,i am qualified,but advanced level is preferred.

however so,

i wanna know more universities.

anyone,please recommend me.

ya allah.

saa'idni.

i wonder..
is this how he felt then..

it doesnt feel nice.
i feel somehow abandoned.
and ignored.

i know i shouldnt.
uriidu an abki..

i need to be more understanding.
i should.


i miss him.
i really do.
i miss you,my spartanbee.

i can fake a smile,
fake my tone of voice.

but the heart aches for you.





move away korean japanese.

i want arabs now.


HAHAHAHAH.

no,serious.
i watched an arab movie for the 1st time,
with very much lugha ammiyyah.
and i love it.
althou i can say i only understood 1/4 of what they talked!

gosh,now i know how much lugha amiyyah appeals to me!
no wonder ustz Goumaa was pretty mad hearing lugha amiyyah from us.
cause wed rather skip the fushah n go to the ammiyyah,
which is not good ok.
but still.

hehe.

subhanallah.


ohmy.


may came and knocked me down.
alhamdulillah thou...
ive managed to pull myself up.

but still,
my postures is not in a good shape.

oh,and i fell infront of the guys RIGHT AFTER KHUTBAH.
wallahi,eh hada?
hahaha.

wasnt that nervous during khutbah..
and then ,BANG!
the knee got twisted,not once,but TWICE!
while in despair,i looked at them,they looked at me in shocked,and time froze for 2seconds.
i forced myself to walk,while the legs were shivering..
and wallah,alkhouf wal hayak...GONE!
hahaha,boy i felt nothing.

well,
well.


1mnth of knowing.
1.5 of ♥

sorry to left u in anguish.
please redhakan what had happened.
we planned,only Allah can determine.

u were in my thought everytime.
miss you.
we'll meet ok.


ok ni betulnye last,
OK.
hehehehehhe.


Bunga: By,nak jadi Jodhaaa...
Iwan: *sighs* lagi?
Bunga: hehehe..i tgk lagi ari tu..
Iwan: lagi skali..giler la u.
Bunga:*smiles WIDELY*nak jadi Jodhaa..
Iwan:ok ok u Jodhaa k.
Bunga:hehehehe.*sengih kambing*


ok last.




hehe.


i know.
stop it lina.


am melting inside..
mere naam Jodha bunga=]


so gonna buy the dvd.


oh,and did i mention..
thats im supposed to SLEEP NOW!

well.
hehe.

ok.
i watched JODHAA AKBAR AGAIN.
on zee tv..was brwosing the channel and TADA!
again,i literally shrieked.
hehehe.

oh,and i watched My Name Is Khan.
SRK seriously is veryverygood albeit his unhandsomeness..
but badan de lawa..hehehe.
and Kajol..she's a beauty with age.
if iwan cried 3times watching this..
i cried the whole time,haha!




guess what.

i disappeared for 3days..
to across the causeway.
apparently,i was forced to follow them right after posting the previous post.
heh.

so i went there,
and finally saw the house.
its nice,and comfy,and kinda convenient.
enjoyed myself there..
and everyone was like happier there.
maybe because of the greens that were surrounding us.

well,i do care if u guys call me minah msia..
cause im not.
im just enjoying the cheapness there.
hehe.

its kinda like a vacation home,only that theres nothing special.
let me get my licence first,then we can go retreat there k girls?
hehe.




oh,did i mention im like literally broke now.
since my dad changed his job and is most of the time in Johor,
i didnt get my allowance.
i guessed hes just busy settling stuff there.

i still hasnt visit the new house yet.
busy,busy,busy.
and slowly things changing here.
however reluctant i am,i still need to accept it.
its for the better of our family,after all.

well,im gonna be abandoned,YET AGAIN.
theyll be going there tonight,leaving me n bro behind.
grandprnts n maid gonna be home on mon,while mom's on wed.
n bro's working,so yeah.all alone.

maybe ill go there next week.



oh well.
todays got to the one of the rarest days.
im actually here,in my room since morning.
and its a holiday today.

well.
lots of catching up to be done.

done with my part on the Gb project.
being me,who exaggerates..or rather loves details..
i wanna insert for infos..
but somehow i felt its unnecessary.
hmm.

anyway,
done with mustolah hadith's too.
found this superb file on the complete biography of imam alhakim.
gerek perr.
only,its 32PAGES LONG.
hahahahah.

next,gonna read up tafsir n muqoronah.



gosh.
its April already.
how time flies.

im scared thou.
qawaid.
IT WAS REALLY BAD FOR ME.
i know,they kept saying dont worry so much.
but..
its been so long since i got that kind of marks.
n im kinda broken inside.

i know u might say its just an exaggeration.but,this is just what i feel.


oh,and insya paper1's soon.
ohmy,ohmy.