everytime i think of you,
it hurts.
cause im at loss.

while everyone's celebrating,
im crying inside.
i talked about you like its normal,
but awkwardness never left us.
i dont know why it became like this.

we used to be so close.
memories with you are still fresh in my mind.
and everytime i think of it,
it made me felt loved.

but ive lost you.

when i look at them,
i felt a pang of jealousy.
how close they are..
and yet we are so far apart.

maybe ive done things that mightve hurt you.
but i still love you.
when you were about to leave..
i hugged you,and i dont wanna let go.
but somehow i felt hostility from you.
it seems that..

you just want me away from you.

please forgive me.
cause i longed for your attention and care.
cause its been so long since ive seen you smile at me.
or laughed with me.

i miss those days.

everytime i go to ur page,
ive always hoped that ull finally accepted me.
but like a kid wishing for santa claus,
i was forced to face reality.

you knwo what kills me the most inside?
seeing nobodys who became ur friends,
while i couldnt even get near you.

i talked about you like you were always next to me.
but the truth hurts.

and i cant find the remedy.