starlights,yours for the taking.

syafahallah...

2011-04-20T03:14:00.001+08:00

My granny just got warded at CGH.
since dad isnt arnd n fiqko just came hme frm sch, my mum n me went there to settle things out.

Shes been having breathing difficultues for weeks.. She was warded just 2 weeks ago fr the same reason..
Its hard when shes all secretive n keeps her pain to herself not wanting to trouble others.

Its really pains me seeing her condition nowadays.
Very frail n thin.. Shes really that choosy in almost everything..

I just hope itll b ok fir her in a few days..
Cz im left with two days here..
Ya allah please let here b ok..

days numbered

2011-04-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

approximately 1week left.
although its true i can come back after 2 weeks or so,
but its not gna be that frequent for me to enter singapore later on..

moving to Jb is a good thing, itll take off some of my dad's burden..
and personally it feels more homely there..
i really like what my dad has done with the garden..
and theres flowers!

but then again..
i wont get to meet hunnyb that often anymore.
and its sad. really sad.

pretty girls in hijab <3

2011-04-19T01:38:00.001+08:00

I feel very much happy n delighted Coming across pretty stylish hijabis on fb:)
Esp if i cud browse her pics beforehand so i could add her:)

Fyi i do have the tendency to refuse to add unknown ppl, unless i know n is close to them or i find them interesting:)

Hehehe, happy sgt tgk drg walaupun aku tk kenal drg pon.
N ill found myself talking to myself abt them..
Kan best mcm ni.

Sedikit sebanyak dpt juga kita follow their looks in a way or two.
Hehehehe.

Cume i mls nk try style yg kne pkai inner covering utk leher..
Tk panas n rimas ke?
I usually just anyhow belit till i achieve the similar look.

But then again, i wear heels..
And thats more excrutiating.

Well maybe one day.

Ok so im super duper excited to live in kl!
Cz theres gna so much to shop!
N its mostly halfpriced there!
Kene pandai carik la kan:)

Yeye!

Even so,
Most always remind myseld to wear hijab covering my boobies n neck.
And also takmu toncet tinggi2.

Mmm.
Must always remind myself before stepping out of the house!

I cant sleep.
Somehow im excited.
Teehee.

brain disvonected

2011-04-19T01:27:00.001+08:00

Haha!

My brains getting abit slow these days..
The other day i lit. Paused for a few seconds wondering how ice shud be spelt..
The words that came to my mind was.. Aice,eice...

And just a moment ago,
I wanted yo spell night, but ended up with nigth, nihgt..

Hahah!

Thank god for sch fr starting soon!

in my bed

2011-04-19T00:14:00.001+08:00

Yay finally found an app to update my blog!Hehe soon i cud update my blog when im without my laptop!

packing

2011-04-18T17:12:00.000+08:00

so im almost done with the packing.
and boy! theres alot of things to bring!

my luggage is fully loaded with only clothes.
i literally had to sit on it to close it.

theres an additional reusable shopping bag for the bedsheet, praying mat,telekung,towel,selimut ,fork&spoon,cup and something else i cant remember.

i still need to buy lots of other things.
which i think should be about another one of the bag.

and cause we'll b goin there on friday,
i have to separate the clothes ill b using from friday to the admission day(tuesday) from the ones in my luggage.
this is ofcourse to make things easier for me when we go to the hotel.

oh yes!
shoes!
i have to bring one slipper for the toilet, the Ck sandal,my purple croc and my sportshoes.
and maybe one of my nice looking flat..
as for my heels,ill have to bring them over later on...
how sad!

so in total ill be bringing

1 luggage
2 big sized reusable bags
2 pillow & 1 bolster.
1 backpack

thats alot!

i just hope im not the only one with so many things to bring!

fashion.

2011-04-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

hijab used to be dull.

used to the centre of mockery.

used to be rejected by muslimahs.

all cause its just unglamorous.

well that was 20years ago.

now,

i dont have to say much.

theres just so many styles!

theres one for any type of girl!

alhamdulillah,thank you for the brainchildren of this phenomena.

now,more hijabis are proud to publicly announce their beliefs.

but when one starts accusing of another for stealing her style,

whats up with that?

unless really,ur the one who actually created that look..

then i think you should ponder before you speak,and have fun sharing.

yes yes,women and sharing isnt a bombastic combination.

clearly who wanna be in the same room wearing the EXACT SAME CLOTHES?!

even i wont.

but that situation up there,is a rarity.

only happens that often with celebrities on the red carpet.

imagine,instead on bashing on each other..

you could share tips,styles and lend one another pieces from your wardrobes!

now we all can look great together!

so please,dont act all divalicious.

shed the ego, and start sharing!

id personally say,

my look isnt that original.

i can see women out there who spot the same look.

n im cool with that.

cause we feel comfortable with the look,and feels it suits our body.

I just alter here and there,giving my touch to make it look more me.

and i really think that everyone else is doing the same thing.

* this post is purely mutual. its based on what i observed lately. its anything but personal, Thank you.

such complexity.

2011-04-17T20:59:00.000+08:00

el Hub.

it makes blinding light seems so subtle and pleasing.

it turns pain into pleasure.

with it,bitter taste so sweet.

but what happens when its gone?

all the illusion disappear.

and all thats left is the harshness of reality,

accompanying your loneliness.

everyone has their own story to tell.

their own secrets to keep.

their own memories to reminisce.

love is so complex.

like an endless spiderweb,

entangling anyone who dares to touch it.

malas.

2011-04-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

i woke up.got naughty.ate.sleep.

k now repeat it 3times.

thats basically today.

teehee.

alhamdulillah

2011-04-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

finally,got to meet up with most of us again.

thank you to those who came so early n was on time,

and also for the janji melayu kakis,teehee

your presence is greatly appreciated by my family n me<3

hope you all gain something from what my dad said,

ingatlah ayat dlm surah yaasin tu bile kite rase mcm nak jadi jahat n ikot setan k.

not surprising,i saw someone dozed off during this moment,

mcm kat klass pulak eh,hehe

also,

thank you for finishing up the food.

harap korg happy with your tummies loaded!

and to those who gave me the presents,

ohmy tak kusangke!

sayang korg lah!

hope to see you guys together again.

it was fun,we got to chat and catch up with each others' lives.

but for now,

HERE WE COME, UIA!

share,please.

2011-04-15T00:56:00.000+08:00

every one is special.

every one is unique.

every one is their own self.

sharing doesnt hurt.

it wont make you lose your identity.

it wont render you lower than your current state.

it shows that you care.

cause you are who you are,

no one can take that away from you.

less on the selfishness,more on the selflessness.

ok?

cinta hatiku.

2011-04-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

however far apart we will be soon,

thoughts of you,and us will never leave me.

indahnya persahabatan.

bila suka dan duka diharungi bersama.

bila kesilapan yang tak mampu kita lihat dgn mata sendiri,

diberitahunya kepada kita dengan tegas tetapi penuh sayang.

mungkin air mata pernah dititis kerana adanya perselisihan faham antara kita,

namun hati tetap tabah mengharungi cabaran.

manisnya persahabatan,

bila memikirkan betapa diri disayangi dengan penuh keikhlasan.

bila mengenang akan kenangan lalu membuat hati riang.

bila tiap kali kupandang wajah-wajah mereka,

mulut tersenyum,hati pun ikut riang gembira.

alhamdulillah,

kerana diriku yang tidak seberapa ini telahpun dikurniakan sahabat-sahabat

yang sangat penyayang.

as a friend of mine say,

"if we dont meet again after this,

may we meet again in Jannah".

satisfaction,never.

2011-04-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

humans are born unsatisfied.

ever so hungry for something new,something better.

until eventually it will eat himself up.

and then regret sips in.

and theres just too much damaged done,

itll take more effort to recover.

you,me.

everyone is unsatisfied with just about anything.

some deny it,some chose to succumb to it.

be it physical matters,or mental issues.

jealousy sparks hatred.

hatred causes trouble.

too much trouble is catastrophic.

bashing each other,

just to satisfy the ego.

but what do we gain,at the end of the day?

satisfaction? yes but for a short run.

pain? yes,and itll last much longer.

thus comes in the teaching of Islam about Patience & Gratefulness.

always hold on to this two.

insyallah we wont get sucked in this ugly disease.

even so,

humans can never run away from mistakes & forgetfulness.

a reminder for myself,and all.

the graduation.

2011-04-15T00:10:00.001+08:00

do click on this picture n magic will appear!

i know its kinda late for such a post,

but hey this blog is soooooo overdue!

so ill start my new post with the ending journey in Aljunied.

the last post i wrote about sch was waaay back in Oct '10.

and now months later, im now an alumni.

eventhough its been months ago,i could still recall vividly the memories we shared.

the meetings we had,the arguments we fought, the misunderstandings we thought, all for the sake of having the best graduation event.

alhamdulillah our graduation went pretty well, despite the above.

id rather left out all other unpleasant comments about it, as i feel that we're not the one they should be throwing those comments at.

i remembered,all of us just didnt wanna let go of the moment,

and if we could we wouldnt want that night to end so that we could celebrate it endlessly.

and so it continued for a few days afterwards.

although it has mellowed down to near-extinction,

the fact that it was one of the best night of our lives will never fail to make us smile,once a while.

12years of learning,loving,sharing,giving,enduring, of being an Al-Juniedian.

with the Mufti,Ustaz Fatris

i came by to say hello, n maybe stay.

2011-04-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

ive decided to resurrect this blog from the dead.

and boy do i have lotsa things to talk!
so,as of now,
i will be staying here,for good.

see you around!

2010-10-06T01:26:00.000+08:00

its really hard.

without noticing all these while..
i realised..
i dont really share much about myself with others.

i just feel awkward doing so..

its gettin harder lately.
frequent misunderstanding,fights.
its like every move is crucial.
every move should be with care,
like everythings so sensitive now.

why?
i dont know.
but i hate it.

it sucks big time.

hi

2010-10-06T01:19:00.001+08:00

hi again.

after a rather short abandonment,
ill begin the journey again,

see you.

plea

2010-08-10T00:48:00.000+08:00

i really hope and pray,
that he'll return to the right path again.

i love him so much,
i cant bear to see him in his state now.
althou i never show my concerns,
i guess im just too afraid to approach him over this.

ya allah,
please show him back the hidayah he had lost alongg the way.
cause i love him so much ya Allah.
please,save him.

amiin.

2010-08-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

hypocrisy.

every one has their own moments of it.

however,it shouldnt kept recurring.

thats just ....wrong.

and really,its just plain impossible to please everyone with your actions.

humans are egoistical after all.

but that doesnt give you the green light to be a friggin hypocrite in people's faces.

and please,kalau tak puas hati.

cakap depan muke ok.

id rather we talk things out rather than u being a hypo.

kalau perah,janan simpan uh.

bilang yg kau perah pasal kitrg.

mane tau the reason was just a misunderstanding.

its just sad.

i guess i should say alhamdulillah for this.

ya allah.

bliss

2010-08-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah.

i wanna make a habit to always say alhamdulillah if im happy or sad.

so for today's post,its for the happiness ive felt today.

as i sit on my bed typing on this post,

the moments we shared just hours ago kept playing in my mind.

truly i can say,i sincerely enjoyed today.

everyone has their own lives to live.

their own problems and dilemmas to face.

we can choose to show it,or hide it.

everyone has their own ways of dealing with difficulties.

so,

to see their happy faces laughing with me.

i felt so grateful to be blessed with such happiness.

the conversations we had,althou at the surface may seemed full of nonsense,

but i do learnt new things.

like how we could cry over various reasons.

it may seem silly based on our reasons,but that actually shows who we really are.

you know,the everyday things you do actually reflects your personality.

i realised something just a moment ago.

we are imperfect in our own ways.

but when the right people get together,

everythin is perfect.

2010-08-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

sweet dreams dears.

JANGAN LUPE BANGUN SUBUH!

2010-08-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

when we listen to a happy beat,it instantly cheer us up.

same goes with cheesy love songs.

so hooked on to Bruno Mars' "just the way you are"

a random comment,

every time his name comes into my mind,it reminds me of a chocolate bar.

so,i would giggle every time his name comes out.

heehee

contented and relieved.

i guess we're back again<3

intermad

2010-08-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

say,thank you allah.
for everything that you has bestowed on us.
for everythin happens for a reason.

alhamdulillah today was very heartwarming for me.
and pumped my adrenaline to the max!
alhamdulillah Aljunied has won the intermad games,4years in a row.
the guys should really deserve the salutation.

well,i wont comment on the desas-desus aftermath of the event.
as i said,akan ade hikmah disebalik setiap kejadian.
allah yg maha tau,so please husnu zhon terhadap everyone.

and to the other madrasahs,try harder=]
insyallah one day you can.
but be mindful though,play by the rules with respect.

im happy for the school.
thouh,im prettty sure we're gonna get a scolding when sch reopens,
for runnin wild on the field.
hehe.

well,i tell you.
its worth it.

2010-08-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

hey.

well,i feel like talkin about something rather random.

well.

try think back to ur past.

the words youve said,the promises youve made.the swears you took.

now tell me,have you already broken some of them?

most would say yes.

cause people change.

they change their way of thinking,their perspectives,their outtakes of the world.

we're evolvin.changing everytime.

thus we are always taught to really THINK before taking any actions.

ponder about it folks.

2010-08-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

currently obsessing AGAIN over simon baker.

woohoo.
mentalist season 2.

season 3's gonna be aired soon in Sept.
only 1 bummer.
its in the US.

k,bu,
can i follow u back to the States?

gosh patrick,
you're just so naughty and cute.
its irresistible.

2010-08-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

despite everything,

it all comes down to this.

as long as i still feel empty without you at my side,

no matter how horrid and nasty the fights,the misunderstanding are.

i know that i just wanna be there with you.

<3 is wonderful.

alhamdulillah.

2010-08-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

mira & nashy.

managed to have a girls day out few weeks ago.

watched nodame's final part

together!

sayang them.

im very very glad and happy to see my mira cheerful again.

to see her happy vibe hanging around her.

i read a quote in a book,which says

"sometimes the best way to get over someone is to be under someone else"

i wish her the best.

keep looking,and ull find the right one when you least expect it.

as for my nashy dear,

she's been busy lately with her school.

kinda miss not seeing her in school anymore.

just today they commented how my school tudung is looking like hers.

well,we do have this "heck-care" approach to our school outfit.

hehe,maybe cause im sitting at her place now.

hehe,bllabb,

thats just pure coincidence.

miss them very much.

oh,such memories.

2010-08-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

1st story-School.

Its August now.

which makes..3more months left to be in that uniform.

gosh,as the date ggets nearer,its gettin more nerve-wrecking.

my mind keeps changing.

as im standing at my place now,

i realised how things can maneuver to the opposite directions in a light speed.

my initial plan was to get out of the madrasah system and enter the mainstream poly.

well,as you guys know by now..

ive changed my plan.

i might not even get to step inside that place anyway.

id dare say that im gonna enrol myself in UIA.

taking comparative religion.in english(yeah!)

oh,and mainly because theres philosophy in it!

i hope i wont change my mind again.

cause i tell you,

my parents were so DELIGHTED upon knowing this.

ok,apart from my future plans.

im really cherishing this last year together with everyone in school.

this afternoon,as i sat in the class hearing the lecture,

i looked at everyone..

every single faces,the guys and girls..

and it got me thinking.

"we're all gonna grow up and get married,have kids,work.."

their laughing,snoring,indifferent expressions..

i will miss them all once the remaining 3months is over.

insyallah,everyone will be under Allah's Guidance.

i pray for everyone's success in life,and the afterlife.

ameen.

haaalllo!

2010-08-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

OMG.

did i just abandoned this blog?

afwan awie..

well,when was the last post?

weeks ago i reckon.

well,im back!

lots of thing happened,lots of stories,events..

both up & down,fun and shitty...but all ended well.

the fact that i am here typing with a happy vibe proves it,eh.

so i guess im just gonna categories the stories as we go by.

i miss you blogy.

althou i know ive slashed the number of readers by more than half just by abandonin you.

so readers,IM BACK!

heheh.

2010-07-06T00:54:00.000+08:00

i disappeared out of laziness.

i know,chronic sia.

hehe.

and i will again!

hehehehehe.

gudbye again.

2010-06-23T06:56:00.000+08:00

currently waitin time to pass by so that i can really get ready.
wooohhs.

left with just a week before school reopens.
and gonna be spending it at Bandung!
AWI summit yaw.
gosh,
the fact that once we return here,sch's gonna open the next day make it all seems rather...
depressing.

well,gonna enjoy the entire time there with fellow angklunites!
gonna be learning so much there,
just cant wait!

oh,
gonna miss you guys so much,
esp my dear hunnyb.

to you,
take care of urself k.
jn kerinduan sgt k b..
doa kan kite k.
promise ill bring something for you.

AND,jgn lupe semayang eh.
sayan awak tau.

bye bye.

dtjyfuj

2010-06-21T01:07:00.000+08:00

k guess what.

my "new post" for the blogger got stucked,
and i was pretty frustrated.
at first i thought it was due to the internet..you know surfing late at night can be quite slow.

but then after days of assuming so,
i realised that wasnt the case.

so i cleared up my cookies..and tah-dah!

yeyah!

now i can blog~

2010-06-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

sizzzzzlin!

2010-06-17T03:45:00.000+08:00

yumyum.

A-Team was hands down GREAT!

oh,with nosebleeds Face,LOLness of Murdock,gentle giant B.A and leader Hannibal,

damn it was one hell of a great show!

and along the way,

hunnyb actually figured out the plot before it was shown.

"you must be the director" moment.

heheheh.

oh but i dont really like face's character.

too gatal..

but he's still hot.

really HOT.

changing minds.

2010-06-17T02:07:00.000+08:00

emailed cher khadijah.
im so gonna miss her lessons later..
i like her.alot.

well.
she left me her email so that we can contact,so did.
asked her of her opinions for my post graduation plans.

i listed down the 3 things that are deemed important to me:
-i REALLY dont favour maths. its really TEDIOUS albeit bein kinda easy.
thus i decided not to choose any maths related courses,even if i have to sacrifice my Bio for its definitely is my forte.

- have you been noticing i like to talk?
yes i do.ALOT.but my engglish isnt that great to begin with.
no overthetop bombastic vocabs..na-ah.
anyway im not interested in the serious business;journalism blablabla.
im talkin about tv,media.
jiwaku mengalir darah seni.
chey.

- HISTORY IS LOVED.esp ancient civilisations.

well,
turned out theres absolutely no history-related courses in any poly.
cause she said poly's more of the practical side,
not much of a philosophical.

she suggested A level, or poly but get very high GPA.
well,definitely i wont do A.
MATHS.GP.
seram!

oh my.
its so hard.

oh,about AUC..
i guess i just have to forget about it for now.
ITS JUST WAAAAAAAY TOO EXPENSIVE.

maybe later when i can save up on my own.

holiday.

2010-06-17T01:56:00.000+08:00

im back,y'all.

so 4days of fun with them.

NOW i know where i got all of my quackiness from.

THEM.

pecah perot buatnye.

why?

berlaughing2 dengan mereka.

alhamdulillah,

everythin good now.

love them.really do.

oh,we watched karate kid,and guessed the goldclass seat was soo comfy my dad fell asleep.

when we laughed at him,he replied,

"the story has no plot..boring"

padahal die yg paling excited beforehand.

<3.

tatatatta.

2010-06-11T20:19:00.001+08:00

tata babies.
gonna be off to..KL(boooohring)
till wed.

dont be naughty hunnies.

yawns.

2010-06-11T12:38:00.000+08:00

so all of us got preeeeety tired and sleeepy after yesterday's swim.
well,i told you guys im gonna find out why.

"Some people just have a sleepy reaction after swimming, probably a combination of the warm pool air, being "weightless" for so long, and the chlorine fumes. Also, it is easy to overheat in the pool because your sweat doesn't evaporate like it does on the bike and on the run, and you use more calories."

oh,and i was out the whole day,couldnt even get some nap in betweens after the swim..
and so i woke up at 11am today.
HEAVEN,to have slept so long..

TAKE THAT BODY!

p/s: as i was searching for some yawn pics..
i literally yawned couple of times after brwosing thru pictures of animals yawning.
its really that addictive you know.

waters& laughters

2010-06-11T12:18:00.000+08:00

overjoyed.

finally we went to take a deep in the pool,after so much waiting.

bet wardi's more overjoyed than the rest of us,hee3.

played nonsensical games,and just sharing our heartfelt laughters together.

oh,and i love deep pool.

really wanna go there more often.

oh,yesterday couldnt make it for angklung,kinda sad but i had to.

be my hunnybee.

2010-06-10T01:26:00.000+08:00

its so hard.when you want somethin and the other wants the other.when you & him just dont wanna step off from our stands.when we just wont give up.when thins ot out of control and happened unintentionally.
who do we blame?who can we vent out our anger on?who should take the blame?

call me weak,i know i am.its one of my flaws to bawl out when things get too emotional.when i cant fight the uneasiness,i bawl.i cry my heart out.i will try to control it but sometimes when things happen unexpectedly,you just dont think before you do!

sometimes you feel like giving up.sometimes you just wanna turn berserk and vent out your anger on everything.sometimes you just wanna..disappear.

you feel weak,and helpless..
but let this be between us,u think.
for its something that existed because of us,and we will make it disappear.

i guess thats the reason why ive never shared the problems we had with anyone.
let it be between us.

but sometimes,its too heavy for one to carry alone.

however,after restin,cooling down..i realised how anger,proud and wrath have enveloped us and hid the true feelings,thats really from our hearts.
if only we could just stop.take a breather.and think.
think hard.and act with conscience.

no use crying over spilled milk.
or tears.
whats done is done.
all left is for us to reconcile back.

we are two egoistic beings.
maybe thats our ugly truth.

kisses.

2010-06-08T02:52:00.000+08:00

i must sleep now.

oh man.
love hunny bee<3
mwah2~~~

shuttup bunga.
ur making ppl gag.

hehe.
pardon my loveliness.

no 3 &6 now.

2010-06-08T02:50:00.000+08:00

getting tougher.
yet despite it,im all hyped up for the trip!
oh boy oh boy!
cant wait!

oh and everytime i see cikgu's face berkerut with stress..
i feel bad.
its not only us who;s feeling the pressure..
hes feelin it waay more.

lets cooperate girls.
and ive them a helll of a performance!

kites

2010-06-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

shiteous ending.

HES HOTTT thou.

and so is she.

good movie,but lacked the Oommph factor.

3.5stars.

heheh.

is there a ring on him?

2010-06-07T11:32:00.000+08:00

Killers.

so,ive never really thought Ashton would be THAT hot you know.

cause all these while im always reminded of "Kelso" everytime he comes up into my mind.

yeah,his character from That 70s Show.

and Kelso was far from hot.

he's dumb n kinda disgusting actually.

well,well.

he is hot now.

and married.

oh,so my type.

ok so i told my friends about how ive just discovered his hotness..

and told them about Hrithik's newest movie;Kites..

and how HOT (always) he is in that flick.

and you know what they commented?

well,they said,

"married men must wear niqab when ur around,Lyna"

cause if not im gonna pancing them.

jahatkan...

well.

dont worry,

i wont steal any of them.

and btw,

i dont like sharing.

especially my men.

nyamuk

2010-06-04T12:07:00.000+08:00

"what works?"

"TEAMWORK!!!!!"

OK.

so that was kinda like the shout during the camp.

such great experience with everyone.

the kids,the asatizahs,the nyamuks,the two cats and all other insects.

kinda miss my kids.

hehe.

oh man,

what an experience.

wont say im done with it..

kinda love the the so called hardship we had to go through.

more of these camps please!

deliriously ECSTATIC!

2010-05-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

yeppeee!

ALHAMDULILLAH!
ive never this happy with the results.
ive never even gotten that high!
and never crossed my mind it wud be in my last NONACADEMIC year!

so now,
my mom kept on mocking me for the comments i said about being reluctant to enter preu2.
hehehe.

ok im happy.
and turned out,
my only downfall was qawaid n insya.

BOY,I REALLY DONT HAVE MUCH VOCABS UP THERE.
cant blame me,
im not really that of a language person.
i may be fond of it,but after much observation.
my passion is really
TO TALK AND INTERACT.
oh and read.and to know alot of general knowledge.

so i guess.
ill be having a partaaaayyyy kambeng after this.

really man,
i feel like all my hardwork paid off.
the constant nights of mugging,and countless screams of,"AAARGH PENAT!STRESSS!!!!"

none of this will happen if its not for Allah.
subhanallah.alhamdulillah.

and the best thing folks.
NONE OF MY CLASSMATES FAILED!
ISNT THAT GRRRREEEAAAAT OR WHAAAAD.
but theres some in 2/3.

well,
we must work HARD!
and boy i wanna graduate together!!!!

tragic.

2010-05-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

Samson &Delilah.

a tragic love story from the Old Testament.

a seductress.a mighty Nazareth.

pagan and Yahweh.

Philistine and Hebrew.

Love and Betrayal.

after reading wonderful historical fiction from India Edghill,

it suddenly occurs to me that..

Historical 'facts' may not be so factual after all.

for only they know what happened between them.

most depicts Delilah as a heartless seductress whom sacrifices the love of a man for the hunger of wealth.

however,i especially like how India twisted the story and made Delilah,

from a heartless woman to someone who's trapped in the middle.

who knows,

maybe,just maybe..

theres more truth in the novel than it most scriptures?

nonetheless,the novel is such a beautiful literation of them.

a tragic forbidden love trapped between culture and politics.

the moon & the sun.

forever together,despite everything.

oh,

i love love love historical fiction!

to fae

2010-05-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

time to wake up,and off to school.

the current scent ive been using,loving roses<3

a baby lizard sneaking around in my room in the morning.

the alley to my bus stop.

yay,mom bought June's manja!sezairi looks kinda weird in the cover,hehe.

nearing the bustop.

waiting,waiting.

the colour of after dawn never fails to appear beautiful before my eyes.

its 6.50am and im still waiting for the bus..

finally,ive arrived.

morning air seems so peaceful.

steps to school.

ohh,dreadful?

the old cemetery .

became a routine for me to give my prayers to the departed souls of the cemetery every morning.

vessak day's coming!been spotting this poster recently.

well,not that im celebrating it,coincidentally we'll be getting our report books on that day..

the chat before assembly

calling for assembly

birdies!!!!

somehow,i find them really amusing to look at.

bie and her braces!

gossip girls

hehe,mak esah.

exam papers!

hehehe.

boredom.

erk,exam paper!

current book,am so loving it.

more birdies!

umi's shock face.she thought the flash was a lightning.

there gotta be a singaporean in everyone.hehe

oh,how ecstatic she was that today's menu was chikkin rice

when the teachers are busy,the deejays come in!

the rather intellectual guys with chess

reading,reading.

had fun takin pictures with the bookmark

finally on my way home!

how nice..

the long awaited bus stop!

eww,retainers.

some of my friends think its a removable braces.

well,im not bothered to correct them,so let them be.hehe

finally pupu is at sight!

haha,sensasi.24/7 on the tv.

picture.

2010-05-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

gaymunk is chipmunk.

po po pe pe is spongebob squarepants.

lechyum is the swing.

toddler talks.

i realised.

its beeen so long since i took a picture with hunnyb.

hmm,

im missing that.

you know,

sometimes you get so engrossed with each other's presence

you forgot to record it.

well,best memories stay in ur heart&mind.

but stil..

i miss them.

hehe.

blissbliss

2010-05-25T00:14:00.000+08:00

picture perfect.

my loves<3

ya Allah,how happy my heart is.

bliss.

2010-05-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

never wouldve thought this would be here again.

time heals everything.

and alhamdulillah for al the things Allah has bestowed upon me.

may this time it will be bliss,only bliss.

may Allah watch over us three.

onenight.

2010-05-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

about to.

2010-05-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

oh.
i was about to sleeep.
when i remembered the promise i made to Fae.
so i woke up and charged my camera.
in fear of overcharging and making the old batt worse,
i chosed to go online and clean up my music playlist.

oh.
i really enjoy sleeeping.
while some can deal with a whole day without sleep during desperate times,
i must have put a rule upon me to have atleast an hour of sleeep.
cause i cant do withoout it.

oh boy.
sometimes you just cant beat the tired eyes.
and the comfort of fluffy cooling pillows.

yummy inedible food.

game of the day

2010-05-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

so i woke up really late.
7am.
and my head's spinning.
so i went back to sleep.

hehehehehehheeheheheh.
theres 2truths,and i lie there.
spot one.

hehehe.

home,still.

2010-05-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

awwesome weekend with everyone.
awesome.
awesome,both my guys and my babygirls.

well.
some things are just better off unspoken again.
the memories we shared was fun,maaaaan.
let them just stay inside our minds.

holidays really neaaaar.
and everyones gonna be free most of the time.
including my hunnyb & my poly babygirls.

oh,so much fun!
<3 u guys so very much.
thanks for the memory hunnys.

whaaaa.

2010-05-21T02:39:00.000+08:00

the excitement hasnt die down yet.

i just cant seem to wanna go to sleep now.
i guess im indirectly wanna avenge the times ive spent mugging.
ive never been so relieved and happy after an exam period.
goes to show how stressful i was.
oh,it was really that stressful.
Olevels cant even match man.

and my hormones are not at their best for the 2nd time round.
oh,my.

i must sleep.
MUST SLEEP!

bliss.

2010-05-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

truly magical.
the time we missed,we made it all up with a meeting.
a meeting of souls,longing for each other.

how i miss these moments so much.
really really happy to see everyone again.
and hear your laughters..which ive been missing ever since you guys left.

oh,such bliss.
thank you Allah,for such wonderful souls.

missing.

2010-05-16T15:18:00.000+08:00

<3 u baby,

whrever i am.

may u and i be one,<3

OHMY,

ITS GETTING NEAR.

NO CLUE TO BUT WHAAAAADDD.

hmm.

makan je la.

hehe

fat atitude sia.

to you.

2010-05-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

ok.
kawan aku yg rindukan rumah aku,
ni lah gambar rumah aku yg lagi satu k.

bunga!

2010-05-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

one of the flowers he planted.
what a pleasant scent it gives out..
i was so excited when i saw it.
hehehe.
there 2 more in white and red.

BUNGA SUKA BUNGA!

across the causeway

2010-05-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

perangai gemuk ok dudok kat Jb.
SINCE EVERYTHING HAS GONE HALF-PRICE HERE,
everyone was so kiasu to buy every edible food in sight.
and i never knew how a BIG EATER my brother is.
whoooaaa.

ok,so i kena tarik here.
and its beeeeeen VERY NICE.
we spent the afternoon gardening together y'all.
how sweet kan.

my dad's been very happy and contented nowadays.
a self professed plant lover,
he's been having so much fun creating and designing his own garden,
everytime i come here,
theres gonna be new greens around.

may allah protect us.
alhamdulillah=]

domou.

2010-05-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

emotions and tears.
i hate it sometimes.
how easily i can shed a bucket.

i guess thats just one of the things u have to deal with when youre named "Lina".
*sighs*

if only he would know.
if only.

i miss you.

newt.

2010-05-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

everytime i think of you,
it hurts.
cause im at loss.

while everyone's celebrating,
im crying inside.
i talked about you like its normal,
but awkwardness never left us.
i dont know why it became like this.

we used to be so close.
memories with you are still fresh in my mind.
and everytime i think of it,
it made me felt loved.

but ive lost you.

when i look at them,
i felt a pang of jealousy.
how close they are..
and yet we are so far apart.

maybe ive done things that mightve hurt you.
but i still love you.
when you were about to leave..
i hugged you,and i dont wanna let go.
but somehow i felt hostility from you.
it seems that..

you just want me away from you.

please forgive me.
cause i longed for your attention and care.
cause its been so long since ive seen you smile at me.
or laughed with me.

i miss those days.

everytime i go to ur page,
ive always hoped that ull finally accepted me.
but like a kid wishing for santa claus,
i was forced to face reality.

you knwo what kills me the most inside?
seeing nobodys who became ur friends,
while i couldnt even get near you.

i talked about you like you were always next to me.
but the truth hurts.

and i cant find the remedy.

AM.

2010-05-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

it was mins before 5.30am.
i got conscious,and i remembered thinking,
" what do i really have today...is it the weekends oready..do i have to wake up.."

and then PAPARAZZI went off,pretty loud.
i looked at the time,and its 5.30am.
cause i only set up the alarm throught the weekdays only..
i realised its still friday,
and DANG! i have a paper.

hahah.
oh,and one more thing.
last night,i was woken up abruptly from sleep.
i sat on the bed,and i realised my left arm cant move the way i want to.
i tried to move it over my head,but it juts doesnt want to,n fell down feebly.
normal reaction wouldve been a panic attack,but kinda sleepy so i just moved my right arm.
(i didnt even know why i wanted to move my arm..)

so right now,
i think i salah bantal lah.
cause im feeling some muscle strains around my neck/left shoulder area.
dang!

pffft,

2010-05-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

prior to the latest post,
i called hunnybee.
n before we hung up,i said,"b,i want redlipstick"

guess what he answered.

"giler eh,u nak gi orang kawen?"

hee3.
i knew it.

luscious

2010-05-13T17:47:00.000+08:00

oh,
and i remembered there was this shade which fits me,
but then he said,"ni cannot wear everydaynye shade lah..ni nak g orang kawin je"
hehe.

oh,and actually red lipstick makes me look older.

redlipp.

2010-05-13T17:32:00.000+08:00

yummy.

i really do like her.

such a prettytart,with a WOWSA personality.

especially like her retro-chicness.

she looks great with black,never crossed my mind shes actually a natural blonde!

well,

speaking of her..

i like her makeup,seriously i do.

simple with REDluscious lips.

really need to learn how to do that kind of make up.

and..

i guessed i really need to get one of those redbold lipstick.

cause everytime we passed by any cosmetic shop,ill stop and try out some.

and everytime THIS will remind hunnybee how dating-shopping is A VERYBAD idea.

hehe.

so he'll be my advisor,telling me which fits me,and which makes me look so wrong.

and then...we walked out of the store.

cause i just cant decide which shade do i want.

or,just that...i dont like to spend much on inedible things.

thst just my mentality.

WHICH IS I KNOW IS WRONG.

considering i like dressing up.

hee3.

black,white&red is just so fabulous.

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GO MAKEUP SHOPPING!

music journey.

2010-05-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

current obsession: babies pictures & acoustics.

ohmy,cant get enough of it.
i thought i had a rocksteady heart.
felt somehow bored,and turned to mainstream radio.
then i turned to jpop when it didnt go well.
somehow got stuck with jrock.
still couldnt fit in..
and then.
ACOUSTICS.
INDIEpop.
oh,ive finally found my muse.

hunnyb doesnt listen to my songs.
he said,its so slow,and boring.
well,he's more of a rocksteadyheart.
so,music is one of the uncommon things about us.

TORE TORE SI CRAZY..

2010-05-12T13:00:00.000+08:00

reminds me so much of Sumayyah.
so adorable,mcm nak kene cubit!
gosh,kids they do brighten up ur mood.

3days,5more days to go.
fiqh,fiqh,fiqh.

life is so,unpredictable.
makes me fear of the future.
well,one step at a time.

i wonder what would my kid look like..
mesti cute eh.
hee3.

lets just see where my life takes me.
only you know it,Allah.
if its the best for me,please protect me.
ameen.

OK,BLAJA!

2010-05-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

oh,two days.
6more to go..

oh.
BAGAIMANA *pause* CARANYA *pause* MENUKAR HAMZATULWASL?

hehe.
ustz Baha is just wonderful.
such an inspiring human which i respect alot.

hehe.

little angels.

2010-05-10T15:01:00.000+08:00

BABYLION!

subhanallah!

supercuteness!

i nak babies.

i wanna hug and feed and cuddle and kiss and blow on their tummies and cubit2 their fatty legs,cheeks,tummies.

i nak syg babies.

nak kahwin.

*giggles*

despair.

2010-05-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

in despair,
we asked,"WHY ME?!?!?!?!?!"
but stop now.and try say "DO ME!"

thats what hunnybee said,au kama qol.

in despair,we should stop and think.
dont destroy yourself just because someone destroyed your hope.
tears and frowns..
they dont deserve that.
YOU DONT DESERVE THAT.

in despair,
seek refuge in Allah.
cause the one who wont abandon you is him,and only him alone.
no matter how bad you are,no matter how many sins you made,
if you could still taste the sweetness of iman,
he is still here with you,in your heart.

tears,
cry for Allah.
cause only him can heal the pain.

"inna Allaha ma'a sobiriin".

2010-05-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

i tnk tdo bole.

hehehe.

ok,pinggang i saket.

mate i ngantok.

i excited,exxams da start!

ohmy.

i suke history lah.

hmm.

i tk sbr nak start blaja!

goodbye,hello.

2010-05-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

oh my.
lets dedicate this post to you.
mira dear.

patience k hunny.
no matter how painful it can get,patience k.
everything happens,theres always a hikmah behind it.
the urge to curl up and pour ur heart out is so strong..
but fight it.
live up to your name hunny.
amirah,leader.
lead your life and fight the enemies.

biarlah semua berlalu.
lepaskan,
kerana ade yg sedang mennati untuk digenggam.

you know you have us.
if you need anything,
just beep me k.

iloveyou,
we all love you!

globaliisasi.

2010-05-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

i suke GB .
ala,next semester da bukan cher Khadijah.
booohoo...

i suke die.
she's so fun.
i tak sabar nak start blaja history with her(husband)!

eh,takde kene mengene.
hahaha.

nak have more chats with her uh.
cher,when can we start?

2010-05-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

1.6years of layaning karenah each other.

there must be a reason why Allah has destined for us to meet.

insyallah.

hubbuna lillahi ta'ala.

PANIC!!!!

2010-05-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

oh,and did i say exams coming like...in a few days!?!?!?!

*panic attack*

mon - QURAN
tue- NAHU
wed- SARF
thurs- FIQH
fri- INSYA P2

mon- QAWAID FIQHIYYAH
tue- ULUM QURAN
wed- TAFSIR

oh,oh,oh!
takot qawaiid sangatsangat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

insyallah,
akan pass sumenye!
berdoa,berusaha,bertawakkal!

tak sabar nak ronggeng bro!

teeth and similarities.

2010-05-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

oh,
AND DID I TELL YOU GUYS!?!

i am now (partially) BRACES-FREE!

gosh,after 2.5years of being behind the metals,
getting stared and asked by curious kids..
i am now free!

this friday,its gonna be fully taken off,
and the beginning of using RETAINERS.

well.
now,they say it looks bedek(haha it is)
and somehow they started to notice that wan n me look alike.
really?

be the judge,haha.

chitchatt.

2010-05-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

still coughing..

but is slowly receding..

well.

hello May!

we're in the 5th month now,

WOW thats fast!

really fast.

my tante n wak is back from Australia!

went to Nyai's house and chitchatted with everyone.

oh,nyai's got a new maid,yaw.

i wonder how long this one will last..

i pity my nyai.

she's so cute,but yet so fragile.

alhamdulillah with them back in sg,they can look aftr her=]

oh,and lastnight's chitchat was interesting...

talked about how bad the robbery cases in Malaysia,

and how we got to a conclusion that some robberies used ilmuhitam on it..

when one of my uncle opened up a story,about him.

and because it happened in jawa,so he talked in jawa.

and soon after,everyone else responded in jawa.

as for me,

i agak2 je lah makne de,and paham tak paham ktawe,

hee3.

mcm2 lah smalam.

another wak of mine opened up a topic about wahabi and salafi..

blablabla..

layankan lah.

and they kept on asking we do i wanna go after preu2.

oh,allah..

im in a dilemma.

2010-05-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

coughs.coughs.coughs.

i realised something.
it will get nasty at night n earlier morning.
while im doing nothing.
and thinking only about the cough.

painful.
why is the doctors not open?!?!?!
penat tau batok!

batok,batok.

2010-04-29T19:37:00.000+08:00

out of hibernation,yay.

im coughing.
and coughing.
didnt go to the doctor cause was too busy with muqoronah n mustolah.
well,i dont feel like visiting it either.
hmm.
but the cough r hurting my throat.

that day i realised my cough was getting bad,
i asked yaya,"ky,kalau batok byk2 the throat's wall nanti damage eh?"
"aah"she answered.
and i panicked.
hehe.

well.
i bought woods' cough syrup last night.
and after taking it,
i suddenly realised its for cough by cold.
i dont think mine is.

and btw,tak sedaap ok.
he laughed at my cringed face,saying its so budak2.
ape je,abeh tak sedap.
bluek.

2010-04-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

"I am coming, I'm on my way to you,
I am coming with my heart in my hands,
Wipe away my tears, please.

I don't want to be tormented through the nights,
I don't want my eyes to stay up through the night,
I don't want the unlit lanterns of love,
I want to light them again.

With every touch I want to forget my hands in yours,
And be with you.

Cruel, your heart was cruel, it had not forgotten me,
But now with every passionate call, I sleep and awake to love."
jaayi.
i am coming,spartanbee.
please dont cry.

2010-04-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

politics & spaghetti.

friday afternoon with akhawaats preu2.
tiong bahru plaza, lapanbelasTukangMasak.
perut buncit,hati senang,rasa gembira.

hahahhahaha.

ya allah,
please please take care of our school and its future.
please take care of our beloved ustazs and ustazahs.
please dont let the syaitan win this battle.
show them the right path,wake them up.

ya allah.
help them before its too late.
dont let them regret of their actions later.
dont let them follow thier nafsu and destroy everything.

ya allah.
we love our school.
we love our asatizahs.

domou.

2010-04-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

the future scares me.

have you ever felt,
that when things are going ok..
you start to think"if im happy now,then time of sadness will come.."
and you started to panic,
thinking of all the worst scenarios for every single thing.
and your heart starts to ache.
your mind blank.
and you cry.

i am scared of the unexpectedness of life.

ya allah.

panic room.

2010-04-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

4months gone.

months to go till we part,and follow our own respective directions.
months to go left.

the exam fever is back again!
insya p1 n quran shafawii is done!
tafsir CA too.
left with m.hadith,muqoronah n balagha.
and after few more days,
the real exam will start.

gosh.
this is stressful,ok.
insyallah,we will go trough this.
ya allah,saa'idna.

beauty

2010-04-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

gosh.
really,how can that happened?
must be because of Allah.
subhanallah,
ya allah.
alhamdulillah.

kemarahan itu syaitan.

ya allah,
mengalah itu suatu yg begitu sukar untuk dilakukan.
it is really THAT HARD.
to admit to something that you believe is not ur fault.

but,
tears n confrontation are good.
cause it will all seems to dissolves into the passing air.

and happiness is back again.

time.

2010-04-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

time flies by,
like a speeding subway.

leaving us,standing..
thoughts in a haze.

alwaqtu kassaif.

albeit knowing it,
we cant help but to procrastinate.

to know that uve been left out by time.
is truly,
painful.

for we cant cry over lost time.

dilemma.

2010-04-17T10:33:00.000+08:00

sesungguhnya,aku percaya ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian.

truly,there is.
and somehow i can feel it.

alhamdulillah,
somehow some ways..
i am now interested,n very much interested in arabic language.
allah works in many wonders.

its true.
we plan,allah decides.
and now..
i just dont know where to go.

right now my mind n heart says "i wanna study academics in an arab environment".
ive found a place; The American University of Cairo"
with my o level cert,i am qualified,but advanced level is preferred.

however so,
i wanna know more universities.
anyone,please recommend me.

ya allah.
saa'idni.

luahan hati

2010-04-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

i wonder..
is this how he felt then..

it doesnt feel nice.
i feel somehow abandoned.
and ignored.

i know i shouldnt.
uriidu an abki..

i need to be more understanding.
i should.

i miss him.
i really do.
i miss you,my spartanbee.

i can fake a smile,
fake my tone of voice.

but the heart aches for you.

7biby...

2010-04-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

and someone please tell me,

why do married men attracts me so much?

gosh.

i sound bad.

oh,maybe.

just maybe.i like maturity.

but fret not.

so far,ive never had any personal experience in this lah.

hehe.

i mean,the artistes.

i just find,married actors so irresistible..and yummy.

new on the list:

HAMADA HELAL.

gosh gosh gosh,melt me.

*cair*

2010-04-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

move away korean japanese.

i want arabs now.

HAHAHAHAH.

no,serious.
i watched an arab movie for the 1st time,
with very much lugha ammiyyah.
and i love it.
althou i can say i only understood 1/4 of what they talked!

gosh,now i know how much lugha amiyyah appeals to me!
no wonder ustz Goumaa was pretty mad hearing lugha amiyyah from us.
cause wed rather skip the fushah n go to the ammiyyah,
which is not good ok.
but still.

hehe.

subhanallah.

twisted knee.

2010-04-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

ohmy.

may came and knocked me down.
alhamdulillah thou...
ive managed to pull myself up.

but still,
my postures is not in a good shape.

oh,and i fell infront of the guys RIGHT AFTER KHUTBAH.
wallahi,eh hada?
hahaha.

wasnt that nervous during khutbah..
and then ,BANG!
the knee got twisted,not once,but TWICE!
while in despair,i looked at them,they looked at me in shocked,and time froze for 2seconds.
i forced myself to walk,while the legs were shivering..
and wallah,alkhouf wal hayak...GONE!
hahaha,boy i felt nothing.

well,
well.

dear bee,

2010-04-05T03:06:00.000+08:00

1mnth of knowing.
1.5 of ♥

sorry to left u in anguish.
please redhakan what had happened.
we planned,only Allah can determine.

u were in my thought everytime.
miss you.
we'll meet ok.

2010-04-05T02:59:00.000+08:00

ok ni betulnye last,
OK.
hehehehehhe.

Bunga: By,nak jadi Jodhaaa...
Iwan: *sighs* lagi?
Bunga: hehehe..i tgk lagi ari tu..
Iwan: lagi skali..giler la u.
Bunga:*smiles WIDELY*nak jadi Jodhaa..
Iwan:ok ok u Jodhaa k.
Bunga:hehehehe.*sengih kambing*

2010-04-05T02:56:00.004+08:00

ok last.

2010-04-05T02:56:00.001+08:00

hehe.

gyabo~

2010-04-05T02:55:00.000+08:00

i know.
stop it lina.

hehehehehehhehehe.

2010-04-05T02:51:00.000+08:00

am melting inside..
mere naam Jodha bunga=]

hehe

2010-04-05T02:50:00.000+08:00

so gonna buy the dvd.

bollywood.

2010-04-05T02:48:00.000+08:00

oh,and did i mention..
thats im supposed to SLEEP NOW!

well.
hehe.

ok.
i watched JODHAA AKBAR AGAIN.
on zee tv..was brwosing the channel and TADA!
again,i literally shrieked.
hehehe.

oh,and i watched My Name Is Khan.
SRK seriously is veryverygood albeit his unhandsomeness..
but badan de lawa..hehehe.
and Kajol..she's a beauty with age.
if iwan cried 3times watching this..
i cried the whole time,haha!